Precious Baby Brie

This weekend was a tough one for our family and our friends. When Wes and I lived in Columbia we had some dear friends and we were sad to leave them when we moved back home. Well, we have stayed in touch and seen each other (we only live an hour away). They were some of the first to see Trenton - we took a road trip to visit them. When they come through town on their way to Atlanta, they stop and we go to dinner.

Wes and I were SO excited when we found out that they were expecting! Trenton and Brie would be a year apart and we could share so much with them. Well, this Friday I got a call that they had lost precious baby Brie.....12 days before her due date. I was devastated. I immediately cried and called my Mom. I felt so lost, so helpless. I never wake Trenton up, but when I got home from work that day, the second I heard a little cry I ran up and held him. Not the best idea, but selfishly, I needed to do this. I just wanted to hug him and hold him forever.

There are NO words that can comfort someone who has lost a child. I don't know their pain, I don't know what it is like and the common response of "this happened for a reason" just seems so inappropriate. It may have happened for a reason, but they hurt and they grieve and they did NOT deserve this.

I got angry. When Trenton was going through everything there was never a moment I questioned any of it. I didn't blame God, I didn't grieve the typical way. I held on to my hope that Trenton would pull through because this little boy still had a lot to teach me. Sarah and PJ were not allowed that hope. I could not imagine losing a child. It still makes me cry just thinking of their pain.

Wes and I went up to Columbia to Baby Brie's memorial service. It was nice. The preacher was amazing and Sarah and PJ just held each other. The small prayer chapel in the hospital was packed with people who love Sarah and PJ and love Baby Brie. It was a short service, but very appropriate. Wes and I didn't stay long. I just hugged them and said, "There is nothing I can say". It felt foolish coming out of my mouth, but really, I can't fix this for them.

No matter what caused this, it hurts, so I don't know all the details....they really don't matter. Before we left for Columbia I got to thinking how safe Brie is now. She is safe from all this hurt, injustice, and disappointment. Yes, she will miss all the joyful times and her parents and family will forever miss her, but the fact remains that this world is painful. Brie is in a safe place now and as Sarah said, "dancing with Jesus".

We love you Sarah and PJ. Baby Brie, we love you and cannot wait to meet you in Heaven. You were a precious child and you are a gift. I have learned so much from you. I pray for peace and healing for your parents.