Change

So, I know I promised pictures, but I am sorry life is getting a touch hectic and I cannot ignore time with my family to prioritize my blog, so I have decided to be somewhat reflective in today's blog. I haven't blogged in a while and part of this is due to change. Life is full of change and most of the time I am pretty good with change; however, recently some changes have been happening with which I have not been very at peace.

I see change daily in the face of Trenton. I see it weekly in myself (sometimes daily too), so change is a great thing. I love watching Trenton grow up and seeing the changes - his face light up at the new toy that we just saw 2 seconds ago, but he doesn't know that, how excited he got yesterday when he was given his first sippy cup. Last night Wes and I were able to eat dinner together, at the table, while Trenton explored his sippy cup in his high chair - our first Family dinner. Precious moments like those make change amazing.

There is another side of change, a not so great side of change. I find it harder than the other, but it is still part of life. I have to be ameanable to new things. For instance, at work, I am now in the drive thru. I am not sure I completely agree with the rationale behind putting me here, but it isn't up to me, so I deal. At first it was permanent, now it is temporary. Trust me, the girl with which I switched will be just as glad to come back home as I will be. Although, right now, the peace and quiet (although temporary) is nice. So, changes are happening at work.

Also, for the first time since maternity leave, I am not in school. I miss school in the sense that I knew it would lead to a great opportunity for myself and my family, but I don't miss the hours spent listening to the same information I have heard in all the other classes I took. I don't miss the amazing nights I get to spend with Trenton and Wes. I also enjoy the fact that on Monday night I can clean my house and not have to worry about when it will get done. Also, I don't have to miss Glee! That is the one show I watch and hate missing. So, while this change means it will take me longer to graduate it has also made me really enjoy work more. I am taking on more responsibility and who knows....I just may make it off the teller line and on to bigger and better things. God is funny that way. He knows what He has planned, but we typically don't find out until we have mapped out our lives.

Another thing I am learning in regards to change is the change that happens within families once a baby is born. Wes and I have been through a lot and we didn't have the typical first few months with Trenton. We went from excited to have him straight to our child having surgery. A lot of couples fall apart during those times, but Wes and I banded together and became even closer. Now we are learning what it is like when I am not in school and can help more. We just talked last night (Wes took his freedom to heart) because he plays ball and golf and races, so many weeknights and weekends are devoted to that. I love being at home with Trenton, but sometimes I need a little grown -up time too.

Now, Trenton is getting to know how to manipulate Wes and me. For instance, he clearly prefers his father to feed him since this morning he just played with the bottle until his Daddy took him and then he gulped it all down. However, when he is fussy...he wants me. So, we work well together in that aspect, but it is change. I used to be the one who could get him to eat, but not any more and I am glad Trenton and Wes have that time together.

I guess my point is this...change is hard and it isn't always what we wanted to do...sometimes it is for the worse and sometimes the better, but ultimately, it is going to happen. It is all in how we deal with change that determines our relationship with others. Wes and I are still learning how to adapt with a baby and we will never know it all, but we are sure of one thing...our love for each other and Trenton is unconditional. Then again, isn't that what marriage vows are all about....good times and bad, sickness and health, richer or poorer...